Prayers and sympathy for Paris.

Moon has already chased the sun, night has become darker  and world dropped to silence even fading the sounds of busiest chirping crickets, barking dog and loaded trucks. It was yesterday- a Friday night  and usually during the start of weekend holiday I never sleep early and even if I try, my sleep would have flee far away. My energy would be at the maximum that would even sustained till dawn break and like usual I was browsing over net, playing internet games, chatting, reading article  and by then it was already midnight when I had my supper with my friend.

After our midnight dinner, instead of sleeping we locked our door and went to our friends room which Is in the next block building to watch international football match. You know, we never miss watching important football matches even if it’s during our exam time and if there is football match  just like yesterday in weekends when holiday just start, it would be one of the luckiest and cherishing night for us. There was series of international matches in swing happening simultaneously ( SPAIN VS ENGLAND, GERMANY VS FRANCE, WALES VS HOLLAND, BELGIUM VS ITALY etc) where we were bit stuck in the middle choosing which country match to watch, and finally we landed up watching Spain vs England and Germany vs France simultaneously as there 15 minutes differences in the starting time.

As usual the crowd was huge,  fans shouting to the peak of their voice with excitements,  drums every where accompanied with blowing horns in stadium and on other side of world ,three of us like three musketeer was cheering up in the middle of night even if we were watching the match on laptop struggling over timely fluctuating net.  The game passed so long without conceding any goals,  and yeah crowd was still cheering huge and three of us was also  watching and  simultaneously talking about the previous day match when our country lost to china with huge differences(12-0).

By around 4 am in the morning (Saturday) the match got over with ( Spain 2-England 0, France 2-Germany 0)  and yeah two of us came back to our room to sleep as it was already late.  By then like after 20 to 30 minutes, my friend showed me on the Instagram picture which title “BESTOFFOOTBALL” with stadium full of fans, and caption reading “ our thoughts and prayers are with everyone in Paris . Many people have been shot around Paris and big hostage situation.  People that saw the match France-Germany stay in stadium for safety reasons.”   Seriously, I couldn’t believe for a once that world is so much a unsafe place to survive and live. I couldn’t believe my eyes that I read those lines after just seeing those huge crowds in huge excitements couple minutes ago.

Suddenly after I saw that picture on the Instagram, I browsed over chrome on BBC to check what really has happened. And to my dismay i saw huge bold on the page  “ PARIS ATTACK- BATACLAN and other assaults leave many dead.”   Where 80 people were killed, 180 leaving injured after gunmen stormed into Bataclan concert hall which was one of the deadliest  of Friday night attack and three of gunmen was also already dead after they have blown themselves up and one shot dead by police after security forces stormed inside the concert hall.

The picture of stadium filled with fans who watched a match was accompanied by president and other spectators and was one of the target for those attackers. and it was witnessed after two explosion and three gunmen were shot dead on spot. That's why all of them were caged in the stadium for the safety reasons.  

After reading all of those news, i couldn't sleep and i was bit disturbed thinking world is still a unsafe place to survive and live among people and people also. i was disturbed seeing those huge crowds in panics and cries which i saw them in huge excitement 20 minutes earlier . 

I pay my sympathy and prayers to all those people in Paris and may happiness find a way through soon as usual. 

Tribute to my king.

Stories as it narrates;

Songs of joys sung loud to the peak,

Prayers reaching to entire,

Excitements flourishing richly in each heart,

Unraveling through the sweetest of expressions,

Unfolding the most skilled of the art,

With the genuine of toil.

My eyeball were amazed,

With kiss on the ceiling of my head,

And sweetness in the wall of heart,

As I watch through beautiful window from an old chair,

Watching beautiful tributes on his Majesties 60th Birthday Anniversary .

An art of impulses and beat on my plate.

Born upon seeing millions of homage to the almighty,

And yet Gave a vivid picture of motherland in extreme joys,

Even through the lens from far away land.

It made me miss the heaven in motherland on this momentous occasion;

A day when a hero was born and peace was showered,

A day when nation was blessed with unconditional happiness,

A day when harsh fade and heaven born with his love.

A day when all new beginning of spring sprung.

My words won’t reach to altitude of your true leadership,

Just like subject of extraordinary that can’t be describe,

Still then, I pay my homage on this significant day with words from abyss of my heart.

My almighty;

You’re an epitome for thousands of generation,

Stories of huge inspiration and light,

North star to thousand of lost souls,

Reason of smile those who’ve forgotten,

Weapon of unity to all,

 I Salute you for all that made me see a 'heaven' on this earth in our nation.

Human and life.

Navigating from the time when you’re born and raised, through the boat you’ve voyage so long in the vast ocean has so big to tell but most of us keep moving most of the time without even giving a single stop to think on the daily life activities. Once one cold freezing night, like of those usual sleepless night when my eyelids took full control of my eyes, when body metabolically active, when whole of thoughts thundered and rumble in my head, unlike other night going through whole expanse of imaginations through the greatest distance mind travel it offered me a good time with a chance to think about the life we live from the time when we born and raised.

 The followings are few thoughts among many which i wrote here according to my experiences and the perspective on life which many of us live;

Love, life and people

Many among millions must have gone through or even if they hadn’t they must have witnessed at least.  You know, in our life as we grow up, as life take us to different places we meet so many people either of our kind or different. What is the funniest and strangest thing that I have noticed, experienced and seen is, how people that we use to know, those people who have been so much to you, so close to you turning into strangers sometimes so easily in short span of time.  An example, love is in air everywhere and one way or other, everybody of us even if we are of strongest kind is in need of love, care and affection with the whole burning of desire inside us which make us to search for love intentionally or unintentionally.  When we fall for love, when we find soft corner for the person, in the beginning it started with all those ties of dreams, hopes, wishes, and promises like we could even give up whole of ourselves to the people that we love, but as day turn into week, week into months and years, naturally problems, barriers, challenges comes on our way which sometime completely ruin the relation due to so much of expectation or due to different qualities that one can’t accept for each other, and it happens in most cases which started with hurts, betrayal, sadness and all. All of this is perfectly fine, because we can’t deny the truth of life being series of battles that testify us each coming days, but what is unbelievable and strange is, how those people who has known from tip of hair to tip of nails, who has share hundreds days of happiness and joys turning easily into complete foes in short time after all problems in life.

It look so strange and funny to me because obstacles and problems has nothing to do and ruin the entire thing if everyone of us don’t give a way ,after all the problems and life is normal.

So have you ever thought of why all this things turns out so bad? I think it turns so bad unbelievably, because of human and self associated problems of ego and the demon that everyone has inside. Such is a strange life sometimes going on in this beautiful world.

Life and game.

There are millions of things we encounter in our daily life and among all; troubles, struggles and battles is one that arises anywhere at any time in all the time that comes, irrespective of any status and situation. So the question is how you have been dealing with this entire situation, when sometimes lives don’t treat fairly or either when life finds us through wrong times.   Adrenaline rush, head breaking thoughts, heavy worries and all sort of negatives vibes right! I know, most of us are subjected or either made like this to react when suddenly troubles find us through our day to day life.  Here is the undeniable truth; unnecessarily reacting and letting ourselves go through worries, tension and heavy thoughts even through the normal life struggles.   Unnecessarily holding things and pressurizing within one making inner peace flee through those things which we have to let go.  Waiting so much for the entire good thing to happen when we know we have to put our energy to achieve.  Such as this, there are so many in lists which one way or other way we struggle ourselves; making ourselves our own troubles. So there is no way we can expect to solve problems, to expect for good when we ourselves make more complicated.

In life, there is so much and more to endure, there is lot of times that we should be ready ourselves and focused to battle any kind of situation without worrying too much, and yeah learning to let things go off which are mean to, because have you ever notice yourself, you know where we faced this thousand kind of situations but still we are the same individual with same thoughts but expecting good things to happen. So basically we should learn to adapt, we should learn to battle in the best way with all the positive thoughts, because all this series of battles through the meandering course just is temporary as our life which just came to test us and it’s normal.

Wishes and realizations

When do we realize most of the time?  According to me, many of us realize when worst started appearing and when our situations become stagnant and worsen. What do we do basically after all this realizations is start wishing foolishly when we know nothing can change? An anecdote from my life at college, a similar story everyone would have in some point of life.  Most of the time, my college days begin waking up early morning, then attending usual lectures, and finally coming back to room and either playing football or watching movies or busy with some social sites.  This same schedules follow almost throughout the whole semester and at the end when exam arrive on the door, i would land up struggling burning midnight oil, which would be much easier if i have given a quality of time from the beginning and as a result i would land up getting exhausted unnecessarily, would land up giving tough time to myself, and wishing if i have a little more time to study good and well.

In life, in many cases to many of us we do almost all the same thing everywhere at anytime even if we are alarmed of the future, even if we have dreams by living the life of mediocrity and finally landing up realizing when the worst start appearing.    There is so many thing in life where we land up realizing lately; realization of short of time when it’s all finish, realization of love and care when it’s far gone, realization of missing happy home when you go through struggles and thousand more that make us realize each coming day making us wish more and landing up getting devastated at the end when nothing get change which we could have done before if we are little serious of life. 

So basically I think giving ourselves a time to do what we are suppose to do would make life so much easier without having to realize when everything is at stagnant, but it’s a life most of us live in number of days in our life in  this modern society which ultimately lead us to worst time.

Unbeatable

Clouds in head,

Blade in the back of spine,

Chest tighten solidly,

Melancholy enough to sink heart,

Churns in belly,

Body numbed slowly,

Hopes destroyed,

Yeah I got you man totally, but who the fool told you that you’re dead.

It’s you, who’ve stopped flying

It’s you, who’ve stopped walking,

It’s you, who’ve stopped fighting,

It’s you, who’ve stop feeling,

Battles is a life, those challenges are natural.

It’s just a test to find your strength.

Believe me you’re closer to where you want than yesterday,

Believe me you’re stronger than today

And believe me you’re unbeatable.

                                                    

                                                

Changing dreams.

In everyday of our life, starting from the time when we are born and raised we pass through the series of journey encountering millions of things , either things expected or unexpected that makes us excited or drowned, usual or unusual.   By the way, did you ever question yourself sometime’s with your inner self of how you’re doing? if your dreams are fulfilled? and if you’re really on the place that you wanted to be or not?  and a million questions that you desperately waiting for an answer.  If it’s not the worst of blunder, I guess we ask less to ourselves then the feeling that arose within the same body, I guess this days we care less for questioning ourselves then letting it go and let time to take where ever it takes us.

It was one fine morning, when Delhi has welcome a cold wind of winter and I was on the terrace catching some air before going to college.  Suddenly, all those flashback when I was a kid, when I was in school, when I was a student came rumbling in my mind when I see those kids near my college campus going to school for the day and I had a question back in mind; What they would become? How they would make themselves to see the world and let people see them?

Each and every individual must have a dream that they dream to be,wishes that they wished to be with all the lights from different people that we meet in our daily life and with each single journey that we take since from the time when we started our journey of life.  But do you ever thought  of how much dream that disappear and come another? Do you ever thought  if you have nurtured and living with a same dream that you wanted to be?

Alright, allow me to narrate the shortest of my story of life of dreams.                                                   

 When I started my pre-primary school, I was one of the weakest student that teacher would have in his class and moreover  I wasn’t interested in studying and all sort of education at school. That very time, my dream, my wish was to be a  monk.  Seriously I still remember how much I have fallen in love for those life,  when I see monk of my age when my parents takes to monastery and temple.

 

Gradually with moving time when  I was 9, I forgot all those dreams and by then I was a average student after the best a dad could do for his son. He always find a time to teach me, always find a great ways to develop my enthusiasm and energy in studies and would encourage me to be like my big brother who is excellent in studies.  Once as it happened during class 3, when I topped English and ranked third in class, my energy has boosted to maximum level and with each passing year, I felt love so much with the language and I wanted to a journalist.

My dream of becoming journalist lasted a few year after I pass my Bhutan secondary examination.  And getting to higher secondary, I was one of the student among many who was confused in choosing subject.  By then , with less of my dreams and more of the dreams of people whom I love, I choose the dreams of my love to be a humble doctor in my life. So, as it happen  my dream was to be a doctor and land up in higher secondary school choosing biology completing closing another window of engineering.

So now i am here in Delhi, pursuing pharmacy, to be pharmacist in future and that’s my career.  In life, i guess nobody is sure of who you wanted to be, because dreams changes with every situations and growth of change in this life. Seriously, i saw rarely those who still lived with dream that wanted to be always. 

With all my changing dreams, i landed up wondering about those school going kids of what they would become and where life would take them. Sometime's i feel like dreams are like those dream that we see in sleep which disappear the next morning when we wake up.

So the question is; are you still with dreams that you wanted to fulfill? are you in the place that you wanted to be?  i admit i am not and i wonder where life would take me next despite the plans and huge dreams even after those disappeared ones.

DROWNED WITH HER SWIM

Long lost into different road,
And those roads switched back with huge load,
With a gift of moment from astral influences.
Haven't those moments of life came,
If, i didn't paid an attention,
Or never let in from where it all began,
I would still have a heavy head with storm thought.
I would never know how it feel dead,
I would never know how it feel drowned,
I would never discover the saddest emotions and painful hurts,
I would never understand why people talk of giving up even if i went through,
You know,being able to swim perfectly,
Able to fight and stand,
Able to grind the worst,
Wasn't all the reason that erase the worst,
It still hides in the masquerades of happy faces.
And a watch of those flowing tears of saddest emotions,
Those cries of painful hurt,
Those clattering teeth of huge hold,
I knew it has long story to narrate.
A narration even a time wouldn't be able to take or heal.
And i found myself drowned with them,
Watching her swimming every sunrise.

FLOURISH AND PERISH.

Air was filled with huge joy,

And sooner sank in melancholy.

At time everything wonderfully flourish,

And passing time they sadly perish,

Alas! everything is so temporary.

Like a beautiful dream that disappear when you wake up

But why all those good time's rot?

When all those memories still dance in my mind abundantly.

Memories just make me crave,

Even when things are decayed.