I couldn’t even stand enough with sufficient energy to
digest. What is so irresistibly
tearing?
Along the twist and turns of journey, infinite numbers of
barrier for infinite time put me through some hard times but I would always cope
with what I can’t adjust, I stand tall when I must, and of all I would never
break down myself for life is always beads of battles but this time it was a
different story.
Crawl on the chest, cold in the ceiling of heart, wrestling
spin in my head, pressurized tie inside belly suddenly shaken me like serious
earthquake attack beating my resistance. It was a sudden tremor that tore me
completely.
On 29th of December 2015, I was at Phuentsholing
to receive my parents (including my grandparents from village) who were on the
way to Bodhgaya for religious trip. Indeed, I was very much excited to see all of
them, as it has been long duration away from home. But as lives
being meet by uncertainty as it takes the drive for its next turn, upon seeing
them I couldn’t even stand enough with sufficient energy to digest, that I
can’t keep my tears intact. Yes, definitely I was happy meeting all of them,
but gravity of sadness pulled me more sinking into sorrows.
Who walks slower even than the snail?
My grandparents were old but they were strong, strong enough
to carry bundle of firewood on the back of one hour journey, sufficiently
strong that they can finish digging acres of land and In fact I did even clearly
saw the brilliant light in aged face when I last meet them, before I join my
college at Delhi.
After long four years, on 29 December I met and receive them
from the taxi parking. I was happy meeting them after long time, but more of it
saddened me thoroughly looking at their condition. Eyes were blurred, that they hardly recognize
me. Legs were weakened like rickets that struggle to carry heavy body weight,
and it took like almost an hour to reach guest room, which takes less than ten
minutes for me. They walk slower than snail with the growing age.
By then the very night, my sleepiness has fled far away.
Thoughts were like on highest boiling temperature burning my head, and I really
couldn’t believe that my grandparents has reached to that situation, but later
with the rumble in head ceasing with enveloping night with cold filling up
every void in the room reaching even on my body under blanket, I came to
realize time has moved so fast and that’s how life will invite all
of us.
On this New Year Eve, firstly I dedicate this poor piece to
my grandparents and parents who always make me feel special. Secondly I send my
prayers to all the sentient to alleviate them from sorrows and sufferings and
lastly I send this message to the whole world; time move so fast,
faster that sometimes we even fail to notice until truth collides with reality,
so when you’re alive, strong and energetic, do something worth which would help
all the sentient beings.
