Keep low

Sometimes, i just want to pull it off everything, starting from the basics stuffs i am doing for living. I am not sure if this sort of crazy feeling emerge within you or not, but it do appears to me when things around that circulate are icy cold to handle. This kinda raw feeling, that itches coldly in the ceiling of chest, letting current flow all around the shoulder and with tenderness swimming right inside the stomach always give me an attack of cold emotions, thundering inside, making me wrestle through the whole series of life that i see around including mine.

Frankly, i am not emotionally sensitive like my skin to the sharpest object but you know, when we are busy with life, out of nowhere sometimes, some feelings haunt us down, where it pluck the major string making it echo loudly in our temple, making even the feelings visible and put us to a situation when we can even feel the touch. You can assume, when you're alone in the darkest room and when your whole sense is triggered. That's when, when you can't deny to have never felt the current.


I am not sure of indications or the time of releasing chemicals inside body that make us feel so sensitive, but at least i am aware when our focus is right through every windows of life. Here, I am talking right from the same human sitting by the roadside street to the human on the throne, an animal on the path to those pets fed by human, and including all those parallel series of life equivalent or more to the example highlighted that make yours and my feeling flooded time and again.

See thousand of us, despite having the luxury of basic life we keep fighting for another thousand unattended stuffs. Do you? Yes i do and i am still on the same mode. See the basic patterns of life: birth, then attending to fulfill human facet, and then maybe studying or any work, then getting job,then earning,then making more money, then buying thousands of things and it keeps endlessly going further like the wheel on the straight steep slope, never thinking that the whole series is a circle: Started and it should end.

The picture of us today is; a kite on kids hand. we just want to fly high into sky crossing every level without a thought of the weather around and ultimate ground, this sometimes saddens me seeing myself on to this chair.

Do your mind question you? or never happens?
It never happens to me regularly for number of things i picked up are just conditioned and it just keep rolling on functioning smoothly but suddenly when it does, the messages transmitted eat me out in one chew. He started questioning me; Why keep the change when numbers of humans on the street are fighting for penny to feed themselves? Why wastage when you brought to use? Why mobile phone when you've hundreds of life around to spend with? Why restaurants when you've plenty to eat in home? Why heart break when you risk to love? Why alcohol when its warn on the injuries to health? and why more and more of everything, when you've the ground to stand freely.

Many of us know and still we do, for our mind is a loitering feather in the sky and we are blinded with the unnecessary need of life that demands. Our desires today, kicks off high every time stretching limitless making ourselves one hungry monster, never satisfied with the ocean of thing we own. Its very simple, this days we humans carries a heart that beats so fast, that fall so deep and that start asking so blindly. Here is the very basic day to day life happenings:
Smoking and drinking alcohol when its clearly warn on cancer and injury on health.
Buying stuffs unnecessarily when you really don't need.
Heart breaks and divorce in relations when you have fallen in love madly when you met on the first date.

I am scared our monsters are getting more fierce than lions in the jungle, for i get to see thousands of mess which you and i can adjust. To those who are smoking and drinking, question on why you do, despite the fact of label boldly written. To those who lavishly spend, question yourself what it would be if its given to those in need. To those separate ones, question on why you meet up to give a child and turn away, but this is no intentions to hurt or embarrass anyone, just thought if it could be a dose of medicine if in need.

Life got thousands hurdles, life got thousands of things that we wont be able to attend, life got thousand ahead of us, thousand behind us.
Its not always about getting through hurdles, we may fail and we got to learn how to accept and move on.
We won't be able to attend, and its not always about fighting to make it because sometimes it worthwhile to leave it.
Its not a race to catch those thousand folks ahead of us for we are not in field to win or a race worrying, watching those thousand folks behind us to the reach our height, because everybody has its own way to live.
Only, if we are the vessels that determines the capacity to hold the water or a sky to watch, our demonic ego would sleep on the ground. Life is a five second burning candle, burn well efficiently.

Tnobs


PS: Had a drought since the last visit to my blog but lucky i got some summer rainfall today unexpectedly :).

Smoke in Naked Sky.

Coldest lip kissed the naked heart,
Slowly biting fashionably.
The reach to extremities, spread even to sky,
With breath growing heavier and cloudier.
The blood in veins stressed the walls.

The growing shimmer of light faded into dark,
The cheerful noises ceases into dreadful silence,
And the grip was heavier than the gravity.
The lonely night of sequential battle consumed hugely,
With the firing neurons thrusting the brain.


The tremor inside growled tremendously,
And slowly body fall apart like the falling boulder,
Muscles are heavily stressed and consumed.
And journey travelled, slowly starts fossilizing,
With 'nothingness'in the lens.



-Only when you experience the coldest of sorrows, the harsh of sufferings, the worst of battle, our brain starts to think that nothing in this world is purely permanent. like the beautiful spring flower that shrinks and die with rolling time, every single thing in this colossal universe undergoes through the series of life, where one point of time, life make us to go through the photographs of things that are buried as memories.

Have you ever tried looking back once or going through all this series of roads that you've travelled?
To me, all the roads that I travelled, look more or less untravelled. The beautiful, The worst, The Sweetest, The bitter, everything that we came across in next coming years will slowly fade like the smoke in the open naked sky. It become history.

22 years back, I am a happy kid, tension free who knows nothing but easily cheered with life surprises. 10-15 years passed, along the road, I faced some of the struggles, worries emerged and I thought everything is done once you solve in meeting the success.( studying was my complete journey in fighting for the dream)

22 years now, It's like dream fulfilled. I can do whatever I want in my own hand and feet. I am growing adult, who knows how to think, how to work, and how to earn to live a life. But, what is interesting that usually came across in my mind is a flash of "impermanence" that the sum of experiences of harsh, worst, sorrows, happiness and all gave me. I see, those child memories sweet but less mattered has fossilized already and in fact, all will meet at certain point of time. Everything has a time, flowers that blooms in the spring, birds that migrates, snow and rains that fall, and so is our life and sometimes basically doing nothing other than just fighting for our own life to stand on our own feet like the rest of others makes me sick and the cold consume me throughout, because looking around everything ceases slowly and at last turn into nothingness.

"Do good, be Good and live a simple life that counts!"

Life and Reality.

Naked feeling bloomed from the naked heart after couple of days of experimentation with dose of daily activities that dug my head sufficiently. The cloud in the sky of my head cleared handsomely after thunderous and rumbling rainfall and only by then I attained to a thought; Darkness can only make light glow brighter and beautiful.

Journey of life

In the course of this long journey, irrespective of anything each and everybody of us is subjected to innumerable things either we can handle or not and it comes to us manifested in various forms. I am pretty sure; every individual would have a novel inside in his brain and heart to narrate though different circumstances keep it hold within oneself.

In the ocean of life, as it keep rolling over with the strike of time we’re made to choose to live a life, a life where we search and battle over to attain the basic needs and wants as it’s more or less the terms and conditions given to us by the natural laws. Here is the simple question;

What do you do to battle to reach where you want to reach?

Simply, we are much conditioned to many of the things and moreover, many of us are gifted with whole package of weapon to fight and we could easily gain what we are searching for. But, do we value those that come so easily? Extraordinarily rare, I guess. Now respect to much arid condition when we face a higher level of challenges, few among us can only pass through the level with all of the capacity that takes to battle and when luck is at the peak.

Here is the interesting thing; those who fail to reach where they want, undergo series of self challenges despite the challenges that he/she faced already. Failure in human brain is mistook for ‘defeated and no choices left’ sometime’s. So that’s the reason why many of us suffer undergoing a phase of ‘sorrows’ in life.  In the tree of life, we succeeded to climb many branches that confront to us and that should be a reason enough to cherish, energize oneself and stand tall to make a move without giving a way to wrong ones, only by then you would see the brighter side of where you always want to be. Life, as it’s born as a ‘series of challenges’ we should accept and understand that there is always one way to get through the storms. Why we should unnecessarily consume one, when there is huge things to be happy.

Life is a continuous process of challenges and nobody would like to be sad inflicted with sorrows, pains and miseries. But, why do we complain so much in life when one challenge wins over us. Yeah, maybe the answer is ‘we are human made of bones and flesh to feel the pain, heart and brain to feel the disappointment over the negative vibes’ but aren’t we human, that make mistakes, are we not the one who is responsible for all the things that are made to happen. That’s why, there is always a way to mend and restart correcting where it went wrong.  You know, we care less; we value less for those things that we get easily. That’s why; we value more for what is involved with big challenge and that is not easy with our normal functioning brain, hence we need to groom our thoughts in much broader way.

Let me share you the commonest story among all of us.

Sometime in a day, without having anything to do we get bored easily and that’s not once, it come several time in different places in different situation. Why? Each and every one would have one in the list to reason out, but have you ever thought of what you’re going to do next time when you’re bored. Don’t tell me ‘life sucks.’ the commonest thing that many would have in the tip of their tongue to spit out.  Actually you know ‘life don’t sucks, we sucks.’ Because, how much better and smoothly functioning in our daily routine would be, if we pay those times to ourselves to experiment on various things. Seriously, have you ever given yourself a sufficient time to experiment? I didn’t. I didn’t, either because I am involve with series of activities or when I am bored, like many I would waste my time sweetly. So the story is, be your judge yourself, listen to your true emotion, it would make much easier in many terms and aspects.

The moon and the stars above you shine brighter when darkness get much deeper, that’s why happiness after series of struggle is much sweeter. Life is beautiful!!

Hidden.

Day swallowed,
Night on full ride,
World deeply caught in silence.
Dull moon wavers smoothly.
Across the shoulders of earthly abundance.
Through the canopy of leaves,
Through the window panes,
Across the flowing waves of ocean,
But hardly was sketch on ground;
Like a child's art.
Until the darkest night offers him the brightest light.

GREY

Beautifully brighten,
Colored all with lively green.
Yet majestically adorned with sweetness.

Spectacular!
Was those marriages of abundance.

Mountain happiness was at peak.
Freedom was like sky above us,
And yet weather was amazing,

Beautiful!
Was those freedom and joys.

But
With fading sunlight,
Shortening days,
Abundance grayed into blue,
And nothing was rich.

Old find's everyone,
Abundance ceases and
So is a valley to a mountain.

AFTER 4YEAR.

I couldn’t even stand enough with sufficient energy to digest.     What is so irresistibly tearing?  

Along the twist and turns of journey, infinite numbers of barrier for infinite time put me through some hard times but I would always cope with what I can’t adjust, I stand tall when I must, and of all I would never break down myself for life is always beads of battles but this time it was a different story.  

Crawl on the chest, cold in the ceiling of heart, wrestling spin in my head, pressurized tie inside belly suddenly shaken me like serious earthquake attack beating my resistance. It was a sudden tremor that tore me completely.

On 29^th of December 2015, I was at Phuentsholing to receive my parents (including my grandparents from village) who were on the way to Bodhgaya for religious trip.  Indeed, I was very much excited to see all of them, as it has been long duration away from home.   But as lives being meet by uncertainty as it takes the drive for its next turn, upon seeing them I couldn’t even stand enough with sufficient energy to digest, that I can’t keep my tears intact. Yes, definitely I was happy meeting all of them, but gravity of sadness pulled me more sinking into sorrows.

Who walks slower even than the snail?  

My grandparents were old but they were strong, strong enough to carry bundle of firewood on the back of one hour journey, sufficiently strong that they can finish digging acres of land and In fact I did even clearly saw the brilliant light in aged face when I last meet them, before I join my college at Delhi.

After long four years, on 29 December I met and receive them from the taxi parking. I was happy meeting them after long time, but more of it saddened me thoroughly looking at their condition.  Eyes were blurred, that they hardly recognize me. Legs were weakened like rickets that struggle to carry heavy body weight, and it took like almost an hour to reach guest room, which takes less than ten minutes for me. They walk slower than snail with the growing age.

By then the very night, my sleepiness has fled far away. Thoughts were like on highest boiling temperature burning my head, and I really couldn’t believe that my grandparents has reached to that situation, but later with the rumble in head ceasing with enveloping night with cold filling up every void in the room reaching even on my body under blanket, I came to realize time has moved so fast and that’s how life will invite all of us.

On this New Year Eve, firstly I dedicate this poor piece to my grandparents and parents who always make me feel special. Secondly I send my prayers to all the sentient to alleviate them from sorrows and sufferings and lastly I send this  message to the whole world;  time move so fast, faster that sometimes we even fail to notice until truth collides with reality, so when you’re alive, strong and energetic, do something worth which would help all the sentient beings.